There I was, I was a busy, stressed and exhausted mother of a 10month old baby, running my growing physiotherapy practice. I had built my clinic from scratch four years previously and been on a stress treadmill since I was a teenager. It was at that time that I was at my physical low. I was trying to run my clinic, be a mum and a wife and feeling like I was failing at everything.
The thing is, at the time, there was never enough energy or hours in the day to be there for everyone. Especially myself.
The big problem was that when my little boy was about to turn one, my husband put his hand up and said 'I'm struggling and don't feel great". We realised then that he had been struggling with depression and had probably felt this way since he was a teenager. That meant the pressure went on me, even more, and I was already running on empty and exhausted. At that moment, I felt like I could lose everything.
The one person that was supposed to be there for me while I was building this business and raising this little boy was now at his lowest and wasn't able to function at his best. This feeling of fear of losing him pushed me into survival mode, even more than I had already been when I was sick during my pregnancies and running my growing business. I felt the financial pressure as my husband wasn't feeling well enough to work.